Saturday, March 21, 2009

Blogging Is In My Blood

I was thinking yesterday about why I hadn't been blogging the last month -- actually why I hadn't been blogging much for the last six months.

The answer came to me. I've been living in stress for six months -- and I almost let this stress drain me of my focus and energy, before I recently became aware of what was happening.

It's stressful living with a Bone Marrow Transplant Survivor. All the ups and downs can be particularly stressful. But I needn't focus on that stress, and allow it to take away my focus or energy. I needn't allow the stress to take away the fact that I want to blog and do other things in my life. I can't let the stress win...

Yes, it is stressful living with a bone marrow transplant patient. I'm not complaining, though. I wouldn't be with anybody else but my husband John. He means the world to me. Perhaps that is why it was so hard when he was hospitalized in October 2008, and then again in November 2008, and we almost lost him a couple of times at the hospital. Since that time, John and I have made frequent trips to Hershey Medical Center, his hospital and Bone Marrow Transplant Center, to take care of his health problems.

By the way, John had his three year anniversary of his Bone Marrow Transplant in January of 2009. When he first had the transplant I was imagining he wouldn't be having these problems at three years post transplant, but now I see it is something I'm going to have to live with. At least for now. He is just one of the survivors who gets many complications. He always has been. And he is always the one to survive against great odds! So I am thankful for that -- that he's a real fighter!

But while I'm thankful, I'm still very tired. That's really the reason I haven't written much -- I've been tired, and I've had a very hard time focusing on blogging, writing or photography. I've had a hard time focusing on just about anything in my life other than medical appointments. I've just been attempting to "make it through."

But it's not going to be like that anymore. It's time to move on. I want more purpose back in my life. I can still help John and focus on goals I have wanted to accomplish for a long time. And blogging is one of them. So I'm back to it.

Blogging is in my blood.

19 comments:

  1. Everybody needs a little rest .

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  2. So good to hear from you. You said John is a fighter, but I think you are one too. It will do you both good to focus on something else beside his health problems. I hope you can blog more and do the things you love. Life is not fair sometimes, but we can choose the way we handle it for sure. You both will remain in my prayers. 'On Ya'-ma

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  3. good to see you again krissy,missed you.take care,love mort xxx

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  4. Caregiving is consuming not only physically but emotionally and mentally. Juggling priorities is challenging. Of course I do not have to tell you that. :)

    Caregivingly Yours, Patrick
    http://caregivinglyyours.blogspot.com/

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  5. Well done in caring for John all that time, however stressful it must be. Notice you're busy on Twitter, which is a good diversion. Keep well,

    Guido

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  6. I think it is good that you have been doing other things besides blogging, too, like Twitter, and helping me =)... It is so good to see you with an entry. You have inspired me! I will do one VERY soon! Much love, your TBADT xox

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  7. Hi, Krissy!

    Writing is a good stress buster as long as you don't let it become a have to do thing...just keep it a nice to do thing. I recently realized I could do entries in draft form and am then release them later instead of worrying about publishing them right away...then setting a goal of maybe publishing once a week minimum has helped me feel better about my timing for blogging. I love people to comment on my blog but I have noticed that the less I visit others the less I get visited..it's just one of those things. It's the visiting that takes up so much time...I like to do it a lot..just don't get a lot done when I do...:) Still trying to figure that one out....:) Your blogging friend, Maria

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  8. I'm with you Krissy! I love blogging and although I'm not sure why it took me so long to locate you ... I have now!

    Wishing John and you well on your trip to Hershey Medical Center. Keeping you in thought and prayer.

    So glad to find you!

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  9. Glad to see a post from your Krissy. I know the stress that you have been under but remember blogging does help take your mind off things and relieve tension.

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  10. Welcome Back, Krissy!!! My best to John, hope he's feeling well!

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  11. God bless you, Krissy. This is my first visit to your blog (after reading your comment on a post elsewhere about 14 different Twitter personalities). Will keep you and John in my prayers.

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  12. Krissy so glad to see you back blogging, you've been in my thoughts and prayers dear. Stress...can be a real enemy to all of us, though you've had lots going on that has been stressful for sure. Just glad you are taking that step forward for you to allow yourself to enjoy life and things that interest you. By doing that, you'll not only help yourself, but John and everyone and everything that comes your way. Welcome back dear.

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  13. Hi Krissy, well I think you've done better than I would have under the same circumstances. We've missed you but we've also understood that you have a full life outside of Blogging. Looking forward to your future entries ~ when you have a moment. Linda in cold & dreary Washington state

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  14. I'm glad to see a post from you. You are a very strong woman, Krissy. I'm glad to get a glimpse on Twitter and for our occasional conversations. Please know I pray for you and John daily. Hugz and blessings, Penny

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  15. I think it's very healthy for you to pursue some of your own interests during this time. Even though your focus is caring for John right now, you also have to care for yourself. It's so easy to neglect our own needs. I hope you find what you love and do it.

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  16. It's good to take a break once in a while, to re-focus on the next step you want to take. Both of you are very strong people I knew . Please take good care of yourself too, so that you can be a better care-giver to John. Hugs and prayers to both of you.

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  17. I'm so glad to see a post from you!

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  18. hello and thanks for visiting my blog. i seem to never find the time to blog as much as i would like but, im going to purchase a laptop soon and my hope is i will be able to get some blogging done at work. i appreciate the invite to ask you questions however you may be sorry i have a ton. lol i cant follow you ???? dont know why

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