I have been missing in action for awhile. There is so much I want to write about. But I have been busy packing. Wow, talk about work! I don't know how some people do it in just a few days. Of course I am being a little meticulous about it, so it won't be so difficult when I get to my new apartment to put everything away. I have to hurry up and finish though.
It's almost bedtime. I am a little nervous tonight. Today I finally got my sleep apnea machine! I have to have one with a face mask as opposed to just the nasal kind. This is b/c my pressure is so high (13). The respiratory therapist who was showing me how to use the machine, put a face mask over my face to show me how it would feel. Then she turned it on 13. It felt so smothering and so hard to breathe that I almost had a panic attack. I just wanted to rip the thing off. Strange, in the hospital I didn't go into panic. But in this one I was going to go into real PANIC.
So she went and got another face mask one that only covered around the nose, but still accepted the pressure. It was somewhat hard to take, but much better! I dropped the pressure to 4 to start, and it felt great! I almost fell asleep then and there! The idea is that the machine starts out on the air blowing at a pressure of 4, and slowly goes up to 13 (which is pretty foreceful). But it takes 20 minutes to get to pressure 13. The ideas is that by that time you are asleep and you don't notice the full pressure.
I hope it works and I don't go into panic mode, LOLOLOL. Because I stopped breathing 104 times, if I remember correctly, in 4 or was it 5 hours, during the test I had a few months ago at the hospital. I need the machine. I better relax tonight and not panic!
Okay, I got to run now. I will be back soon.
Love you all,