About a week ago I mentioned I was going through major mood swings - with a lot of highs. I just wanted to say that I am doing a lot better now. I think one of the reasons is because I have gotten on a more regular schedule. Part of the problem before was I was not able to sleep on a regular schedule, which was adding to my hypomania (just below mania), and the less I slept the worse things got. With bipolar if you don't sleep enough you get manic. And then you don't sleep some more and you get more manic, and then you don't sleep some more and you get even more manic. It keeps feeding itself.
My therapist and I very carefully worked out a time to go to bed and to get up (ughh, I hate to go to bed too early - nights are my most productive times, and when I feel the best!). I didn't stick to it perfectly this week, but I did pretty well. We also wrote up a daytime routine, which was helpful for when I occassionally became depressed this week, and even became over ambitious with mania and wanted to do too much.
So my moods are much more even this week. I can sleep! This has allowed me to concentrate and to focus when I need to. My emotions have not been all over the place. I have not been angry and grouchy and depressed and weepy. I have not been so up that I stay up all night and then not been able to concentrate the next day! Gee, being bipolar is a hard thing sometimes. I am sure glad I am feeling better now. This has been a rough few weeks.