It's been awhile since I have done an entry. I must admit the reason is depression. It has been hanging on for two or three weeks now. Not just depression. Rapid Cycling. Sometimes I feel really down and a few minutes later I feel really up. And then really down again. I hate it.
I am going to talk to my psychiatrist about it and see what she can do. She recently changed the dosages of one of my medications and I think she decreased it too low. When I see her in about a week hopefully she will be able to clear up the problem. Depression is an ugly thing.
I do have some good days though. Today was good. It started out stressful (John and I are trying to figure out how to help John's Mom - she needs more help than we originally anticipated), but ended up fun. The reason today ended up fun was because my parents and I went over the menu for my wedding reception. Making wedding plans are fun. At first I thought they would be stressful, but my parents are helping with the planning tremendously. They are the greatest parents in the world!
About a week ago I finally got my ring back from JC Penny's sized. It is beautiful. I took a picture but it didn't turn out too well. I am going to have Val take a photo as she is better at it than I am and put a photo in here soon. It is a tanzanite ring with diamonds.
Let's see, what else is new? Some snow from the Blizzard of '05 still remains on the ground. And there are daffodils poking through the ground that are three inches high already! We have had weather below freezing and temperatures in the high fifties recently! Fickle weather. I do hope Spring comes soon!
Well, I just wanted to end with this - If I haven't gotten to your journal and left comments than I am sorry. It was because of my depression. I am sure some of you know this as you noticed I wasn't on line much recently. Please be patient with me. I am ready to visit more frequently now. I think my mood is picking up. At least I have had a couple of good days anyway!
That is it. Take care of yourselves and take care of each other. Love, Krissy
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Dont worry about not being able to visit other journals...I havent been able to recently either. We're all still here for you when you get back :)
ReplyDeletehope you feel better soon...love Amy
Krissy my dear, am sorry you've had a bad few weeks. That rapid cycling sounds exhausting. Am glad that you're starting to feel a little better though. Don't worry about commenting on journals, as the last comment said, they will still be here when you feel more able.
ReplyDeleteYour ring sounds beautiful :o)
Sara x
HEY GIRL SURE GLAD U ARE BACK SURE HAVE MISSED YA
ReplyDeleteHope yopu get to feelong better soon. We will all wait for you hun. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}
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Krissy,
ReplyDeleteI'm sending you hugs. Don't worry about leaving comments or reading journals. I know how that goes. I'm praying for you too Dear One. Loving you bunches LuAnne
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I do hope you feel a lot better very soon Krissy. Do take care of yourself, with the wedding coming up you need to be well. God Bless Sandra xxx
ReplyDeleteGreat to have you back Krissy, take care my friend.
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I hope you get to feeling better soon doll, glad you're perking up some :)
ReplyDeletetake care of yourself love~
xoxo~Bernadette
It's good to see you again, luv. I've had you in my prayers. Love Penny
ReplyDeleteAww, Krissy, I know it has been so, so hard! I heard about John's Mom. So sorry about that also. I am sure that your rapid cycling is being exacerbated by all of the crazy situations (good and bad) going on in your life right now. Stop this crazy thing!! That is George Jetson on the treadmill..LOL Love you, doll baby! xox
ReplyDeleteHave said a prayer just now. I always wonder how you are doing and miss you when you don't make an entry. You are a wonderful person and I hate to see you depressed.
ReplyDeleteSpring certainly will help!!!
Sonya
Krissy, depression is an ugly beast that tries to take control of our lives. I've lived with it, I fight it myself. ((((((((((Krissy)))))))))) we all love you and I'll keep you in my positive thoughts and prayers.
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hope you feel better soon {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}
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Krissy, I am so glad that you are feeling better and I hope that your doctor can help with your meds. I had gone a long time without a journal entry, too. I fully understand. I've been separated from my ex husband now since Sept. 04, and I think that I am finally about to be kind of accustomed to living alone. This is the longest that I have ever been single and I get so lonely, but it helps so much when my daughter is here, which isn't often enough. I love you and I'm praying for you! Angela
ReplyDeleteHope you feel a lot better soon. Will keep you in prayer.
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PS.....I looooooooove tanzanite! : )
Feel better sweetie!!!! Can't wait to see a pic of the ring! Have you decided what's going to be on your menu?
ReplyDeleteKrissy, You have my support and prayers. Planning a wedding is tough even for a girl who doesn't have to deal with depression as well. Keep an eye on the meds, they are our secret to life. I am glad you found some one to share your life with and who can support you in the fight.
ReplyDelete(((((((Krissy))))))) I really know how you feel and my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you feel better soon. I know it's really hard to think that it will get better, but it will. Just know you are in my heart hon!
ReplyDeleteLuv,
Promise
Sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. I hope that your Dr. can adjust the meds.
ReplyDeleteWedding plans are exciting. Your ring sounds beautiful!!
Our Weather is very strange this year....OK it is strange EVERY year. But I love the extra Sunny days.
Take care and Look forward to reading your updates.
Kate
Krissy,
ReplyDeleteI got the link to your journal from Monica's journal...I have been enjoying her beautiful pictures lately....I completely understand depression...I have lived with it all of my life (35 years)..My grandmother had it.....My mother has it....my daughter has it and I have it.....Since my injury in March 2004, the Dr.'s have added Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome along with the anxiety and depression that already plagued me....There is nothing anyone can say to make it better...Just know that you are not alone in the struggle to fight it....Like Monica said, it is an ugly beast and all you can do when it rears it's head is look it straight in the eye and say, "I am not alone, this too shall pass. I will be okay...." We are all right here fighting the fight too....christie
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