I just wanted to let everybody know, especially those of you who have expressed your concern to me in a special way, that I am not depressed. I guess some of you all misunderstood after the last entry. While it has been a little overwhelming lately, I'm doing just fine! I just wanted to let you all know what was up with me when I wrote that entry.
When I said in my previous entry, "Sometimes I think the world is going too fast, and I just want to get off", I merely was trying to make a statement similar to this:
I feel like my life is a fast moving train. It is going faster and faster. I want it to slow down. I want to jump off the train and go at a slower pace.
I of course still want to participate fully in life, just at a slower pace. Just not be on a train that is running out of control, heading for a train wreck, LOL.
For anybody who thought I wanted to, oh sheesh, do something drastic, to be out of this world, to not be on this world any longer, to really get off for good, I'm sorry if I confused you. I would NEVER do anything like that. Okay, I'll just spit it out. I'm talking about the S word here. Suicide. Yes, I did get asked about that. Yikies, of COURSE NOT. I am merely writing this entry in case anybody else was confused.
I LOVE life. I'm not depressed right now, I'm fine. I'm just going through a lot.
Okay enough of this. I hope this clarifies.
John's fine too. He's neutropenic again though. His immune system is severely compromised. There's no explanation.
I don't know why I always talk about his health first. There's a lot of good things going on in his life right now. He is really enjoying doing his journal. And lots of other things.
And I am enjoying lots of fun things too! And work, LOL. I had better get back to working on my apartment...
Love you all...