Thursday, November 1, 2007

in case i confused you...

I just wanted to let everybody know, especially those of you who have expressed your concern to me in a special way, that I am not depressed.  I guess some of you all misunderstood after the last entry.  While it has been a little overwhelming lately, I'm doing just fine!  I just wanted to let you all know what was up with me when I wrote that entry.

When I said in my previous entry,  "Sometimes I think the world is going too fast, and I just want to get off", I merely was trying to make a statement similar to this:

I feel like my life is a fast moving train.  It is going faster and faster.  I want it to slow down.  I want to jump off the train and go at a slower pace. 

I of course still want to participate fully in life, just at a slower pace.  Just not be on a train that is running out of control, heading for a train wreck, LOL. 

For anybody who thought I wanted to, oh sheesh, do something drastic, to be out of this world, to not be on this world any longer, to really get off for good, I'm sorry if I confused you.  I would NEVER do anything like that.  Okay, I'll just spit it out.  I'm talking about the S word here.  Suicide.  Yes, I did get asked about that.  Yikies, of COURSE NOT.  I am merely writing this entry in case anybody else was confused.  

I LOVE life.  I'm not depressed right now, I'm fine.  I'm just going through a lot.

Okay enough of this.  I hope this clarifies. 

John's fine too.  He's neutropenic again though.  His immune system is severely compromised.  There's no explanation. 

I don't know why I always talk about his health first.  There's a lot of good things going on in his life right now.  He is really enjoying doing his journal.  And lots of other things.

And I am enjoying lots of fun things too!  And work, LOL.  I had better get back to working on my apartment...

Love you all...

Krissy :)  

24 comments:

  1. I'd like the train to shift into a slower gear, too.  Maybe my hair wouldn't be such a mess all the time, eh?  *wink*

    ~Amy

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  2. I know and understand the feeling!!!!
    Becky

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  3. deshelestraci11/01/2007 4:32 PM

    I wasn't too worried!  But always glad to hear a clarification.  Don't we all wish it would slow down?!
    Traci

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  4. I bet your apartment is really shaping up now....have fun with it.....June:)

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  5. promiseluv37211/01/2007 5:26 PM

    Hey babygirl.
    It's been awhile ... I've been gone so long.  But I will read and catch up on your journal when I have enough time.

    Sorry I've missed so much... and I've missed you... but I wanted to stop by and at least let you know I'm still around kickin' and think of you often.

    Love,
    Promise

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  6. cacklinrosie10111/01/2007 6:00 PM

    I was just reading that entry, Krissy.  I got what you meant.  I'm not sure how others thought differently except that stress is so high sometimes for you and they misinterpreted it.  You hang in there and enjoy that new place of yours.  Hugs n Love, Chris

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  7. so glad you clarified it all. I think it is so cool John has a journal too. Now he can experience the feeling you enjoy here in jland and know what it means. Hope your apartment decor is coming along. Is there more pics? I love seeing pics of everyones home. ((((hugs))))
    Love,
    Cindy

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  8. hugsdoodlewacky11/01/2007 6:42 PM

    (((((((((((((((((KRISSY))))))))))))))))))))I am glad everything id fine.Have a nice evneing.

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  9. I knew what ya meant....  I wish life would slow down too, lol....
    Happy All Saint's Day!
    Linda :)

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  10. I knew what you meant to Krissy.  You have had to deal with more in the last couple years than most people deal with in a lifetime.  And you have always maintained such a strong testimony as to how God can take us thru the rough times and is always there for us.   Linda in Washington state

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  11. nyuknyukpik211/01/2007 7:26 PM

    Hi Krissy,

    I understand--life is hectic and chaotic for me too.  I just want a day to do nothing so I can get refreshed--but that never seems to happen.

    Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  12. I'm glad everything is OK witth you and that you aren't depressed.  Have yourself a very nice Friday.

    Phil

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  13. OK - you just reminded me of one of my all time favorite songs from when I was younger.  There's a line that says Stop the World, I want to get off....I've just got to find a planet where they're interested in sanity  (you can find the song lyrics here :-)  http://www.delusionresistance.org/christian/stonehill/celebrate/celebrate08.html )  I hope you can find a few minutes to yourself!  -Kelly

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  14. lilysparadise11/02/2007 2:03 AM

    Hello - Rose here from Vancouver (Canada). Thank you for the wonderful comments on my journal. I am flattered. About your post, all I can say is . . . the older that I get, the faster the time seems to travel and the years go by so very quickly. Yet, time seems to always make more demands on me, than ever before. I'm just running as fast as I can hobble many days, but have learned not to sweat the small stuff anymore. You've made another friend, and I shall return.
    Sincerely, Rose~*

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  15. Sometimes life is too hectic and finding ways to slow down and savor each day can be a challenge.  I've no doubt you'll figure it out.  :)

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  16. mztishgray072611/02/2007 9:00 AM

    I'm glad to know that you are not depressed and doing okay.  Please remember to take a minute and enjoy life.  The good, the bad and the ugly.  In the end we grow through the things that hurt us the most.  Hugs.  Tish G.

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  17. Hey, Krissey, this is dadeo. . .  I talked to your mom before she called you on the  phone re your journal.  Do you think that John might want to send me entries to his new journal.  If you think it is OK, woulf you ask him?  Dadeo. . .

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  18. I know that feeling of life going to fast!

    I am glad though you expressed it better!

    ~~Make it a Great day~~

    Sharon

    http://journals.aol.com/buggieboo1/ImASurvivor/

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  19. ceilisundancer11/02/2007 1:17 PM

    We all have our ups and downs.  You should feel free to express them:)  Even if it's nice to get word that your downs aren't so constant.   Have a great day, Krissy.

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  20. Krissy, I wasn't worried about you.  I felt you were just being honest and who wouldn't be overwhelmed with all you have to do.  

    Sorry to hear about John.  

    Love you Krissy,
    Merry

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  21. I THINK WHAT YOU'VE GOT IS GOING AROUND. LOL... GLAD YOU ARE DOING OK.
    Win =.)

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  22. princesssaurora11/02/2007 11:22 PM

    I am glad that you are okay... everyone has ups and downs, and you have been having quite a frenetic pace to your life....  Prayers...

    be well,
    Dawn
    http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

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  23.     Been there. Done that. Sometimes it helps just to have the opportunity to as they say, 'smell the roses.' I know exactly where you're coming from.
    Jude
    http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

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  24. kaydeejay544911/03/2007 7:40 PM

    You are so sweet!  I couldn't help but smile when I read this entry.  I'm glad you aren't depressed.  I must say, though, you have every right in this world to feel overwhelmed and like the train is going too fast.  My Gosh!  You've been through so much.  I wanted to say, I'll hold your hand while you jump on a slower train.  LOL  I'll pray for things to slow down and mellow out for you and John!
    Hugs, Kathy

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