I guess I've been missing in action for awhile. I've been real introspective and haven't felt much like writing.
But I thought I'd update you with what is going on with me. I'm finally over the pneumonia. I got a CT scan the other day and it was determined that the pneumonia is gone. Tonight I finish up my antibiotics.
I got a call on Tuesday that while doing the CT scan a "Pulmonary Nodule" was found. That can mean a tumor. If it is, it can be either benign or malignant. Malignant as in "cancer". If it is cancer it would be lung cancer.
The course of action my physician is taking is to take another CT scan on April 15 to see how the nodule has grown. Benign and malignant tumors (that are Pulmonary Nodules) both grow at different speeds. That's why Dr. Raquet is taking the CT scan, to see the growth rate of the Pulmonary Nodule. From these findings he will then decide what action to take.
I didn't like Dr. Raquet's plan at first. I didn't feel it was pro-active enough. So I called my pulmonary specialist (lung doctor). He agreed with what Dr. Raquet wanted to do - to wait a month or two and then take a CT scan to see the growth rate of the nodule. That should determine a lot.
One good thing is that the odds are very much in my favor. I probably don't have lung cancer. I have never smoked. However, if one has had a history of pneumonia, bronchitis or asthma, which I have had, your odds are not as good. But I am not going to worry about that. Because I am young and have never smoked a cigarette in my life -- both factors which really do work to one's favor when diagnosed with a Pulmonary Nodule.
Perhaps I shouldn't even have mentioned this until April 15 and I know more. I don't want to let this color our lives. I think I mentioned it because it does effect me, but I don't want it to be a humongous deal, you know? I did want to share, though, as you all ARE a big part of my life.
I've decided to try to keep a positive focus until April 15. I am trusting in the Lord to take care of me. It's probably not malignant, and even if it were, He has always been there for me.
And worrying wouldn't change anything anyway. Some friends told me that the other day -- that I shouldn't worry, because it wouldn't change the outcome anyway. I kind of got angry at them, thinking they were asking me to deny my feelings and how scared I felt. Then I realized they were right. What would worrying do for the next month or so? It wouldn't change any results. So I have decided not to worry, and to hang cool.
I hope I stick with that!
Okay, so I plan on blogging again, and some happy entries, starting right away!
Love you all, Krissy